Mistakes We Choose to Make
I'm well aware that introducing a romantic partner to Aardwolf is a very dangerous activity. It's a lesson I've learned the hard way, a mistake I swore I'd never repeat. But, I think I will do it, anyway. I try to justify it in that this particular human is one I believe would actually be a positive contribution to the community, and hopefully we wouldn't get to the point where every conversation we have at the grocery store revolves around some random bit of AQ trivia. I think he'd probably be the type who would not only love, but gleefully solve any AQ he set his sights on, and I still use translocate in any area that will allow me to do so to bypass having to 'say' or 'give' or do something.
I'm torn, though, because Aard is such a complex addition to one's life. Surely, I highly encourage the passing of free time with such superior, multi-faceted entertainment. It's true that I don't really play any other games outside of Aard, unless I'm very influenced by others, but I have yet to take up anything that's even remotely related to what Aard can offer. I find that a lot of the more interesting and awesome people who frequent our community are the ones who were recruited by others, in a 'you should check this out' kind of way, and certainly I've tried to get a couple of people to take interest in it, and I undoubtedly have a desire to see more awesome people online. These are all very positive things in my mind, however, I recognize some of the flip side also.
There's the risk of unhealthy addiction, and I'd hate to actually watch someone go through that. There have been times that even I was a little appalled at what percentage of my life existed in text, and I'd hate to be the igniter of a dangerous spark. Or, there's the chance he could come home from work one day and be like 'I've been thinking, and I think I want to join [your clan here (which sucks, by the way)]', and that could be a serious deal breaker. There's the chance that, him being a social and gregarious sort, I'd have to read tells like 'oh I talked to your bf today, he's so awesome!', at which point I'd have to reply with 'I'm sorry, you must have me confused with someone who likes to talk to people.' This is just an example of the mildest form of drama that could be a byproduct of cohabitators coexisting in a virtual realm as well. Those of you who have done it, you know what I'm talking about.
The thing that I worry for the most is the questions, because the simple fact of the matter is that I am very lazy and selective in the activities I opt to participate in, and I'm totally happy with that, but I can't answer jack in the way of questions regarding AQ's (as mentioned above), lasertag, poker, and I don't have really good answers for dealing with things like EQ and wars and all the other things everyone else knows can be a major pain in the various body appendages. On some level, I suppose this is embarrassing to me. While I've tried to drum up interest from other people to play before, I didn't see any of them being potentially fanatic, or persistent, or inquisitive. In short, I didn't see a chance for them to come to realization that I know suprising little about a game I've played for nearly half my life. Granted, I know what I know pretty well, but there's a lot that I explored a bit and failed to pursue.
Bearing all of this in mind, I both excitedly and anxiously await the day that a new character is born by a particular set of hands. I would like to be able to share some of my currently very, very, inside jokes with someone outside the monitor (no one in RL could appreciate DITP, for example), and I think it's worth the potential consequences to take the chance. Worst case scenario, I learn my lesson twice, and it wouldn't be the first time I've had to do that in my life.
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